what i think of now..

HEALTHYOBESE BLOG

2010-06-10T00:22:00.001+08:00

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aging

2010-03-10T00:49:00.001+08:00

lack of sleep..
fast aging!

eating

2010-03-09T00:59:00.002+08:00

i've been eating alot lately.

strange as it seems...

today is very weird.. i just ate and ate..

i wasn't full..

but it felt like i didn't even eat at all!

argh

birthday to me.

2010-03-09T00:55:00.001+08:00

today's my birthday.
yeah.

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to lose weight or not.
i don't think that is the matter.

been pondering about it.

i seems that i'm just terrified of the losing weight process.

it is very nerve wrecking despite what it seems

blood test

2010-01-29T00:30:00.002+08:00

yet another chaotic day at the alarm centre.

this time, it includes taking personal calls for grandma's updates.

and not all was good.

well. it is not the balance of good and bad.

more of the final result or the up-to date situation. Isn't it?

rush down to the hospital today. thank you so much for understanding colleagues.

nobody really wanted to tell me what happen.

i saw grandma. this time. i cried.

i was helpless.

so that first time, i don't think she could remember me.

i regreted. not being grateful at times when i could.

always thinking i could do more.

i didn't want to leave the hospital.

scared i would receive worser news than it already is.

but we were all tired.

shifts were a must. otherwise all of us would collapse.

mumbles

2010-01-28T00:09:00.002+08:00

today i rushed after work to SGH to see Grandma.
I had receive numerous sms from mom, citing that grandma's condition has worsen.

it is true.
there is no denial.

Grandma is on adult diapers now.
something that while conscious she finds it hard to do.
her speech has now resulted to weird murmurs we are not able to figure out.

no point asking what she wants.
instead it is always a close ended question
answers that don't really sum up.

Through observation, her breathing is getting worst.
Doctor might have ruled out pnuemonia
But I'm not certain.
Shortness of Breath, even after on oxygen.

hospitalised

2010-01-26T02:17:00.002+08:00

i was looking forward to going home today night.

looking forward to my day off tmr. so that i can be home to look after grandma.

during work in the afternoon.

i missed 2 sms.

at 1900hrs, i read the sms. Grandma was hospitalized.

Spoke with Uncle and received news that she has some kind of infection.

and was sent to SGH.

i left after my shift and went to SGH.

i saw my grandma.

on drip. having tubes for oxygen.

it was a tough sight.

once again, i find myself counting.

counting the breaths.

as she continue to fall in and out of sleep.

i was grateful.

but scared.

Time Ponder

2010-01-24T18:40:00.000+08:00

grandma.

2010-01-24T18:32:00.003+08:00

it has been about 4-5 months since ah-po has diagnosed with cancer.

In the last 2weeks, her health has deteriorated.

She does not have the energy to take care of herself.

It was something very drastic.

During this period of time, as i watch her sleep.

It scares me.

I always stood there. Counted. Her breaths.

Afraid, there wasn't any to count.

The days to come won't be easy.

godmother

2010-01-24T18:29:00.002+08:00

it was a great that my god ma was here in SIngapore for a couple of days for her application of visa.

during this period of time, she gave me alot of encouragement to not stop with my painting and my music.

it was something i was used to.

i don't think i'm that fantastic.

i think that there will always be someone out there better than you.

but it is a pleasant feeling, when someone appreciates the things that you do.

xmas

2009-12-23T01:15:00.002+08:00

xmas is coming.
this year i kinda slurge on some on the pressies..
hmm.. definitely felt the pinch.

however, isn't that the whole idea.
to sacrifice and give to others.
that's the art of gracious giving

xmas

2009-12-20T23:15:00.001+08:00

having a quickie party at uncle's place on sunday for xmas gathering.
people having long weekends, but not me.. well..
too bad for me ya?

2009-12-14T20:22:00.001+08:00

to spread your wings and fly.
your potential is like a ocean deep.

2009-12-14T20:19:00.003+08:00

have been thinking alot of my life.

the focal point of life.

to live life to the fullest....

i doubt i have realised the meaning of this sentence.
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2009-11-14T00:21:00.002+08:00

okay people..,
haven't really been blogging much..

i wonder.. should i complain.... about the things that i'm not really happy with.
for example.
my work schedule
the near drowning experience at work when pple take mc
the shitty-ass pple who complained.

hjmmmmm... i wonder ...
well.. its one more day of being a super woman.

honestly speaking

2009-11-02T22:55:00.002+08:00

honestly speaking...
sometimes i feel that life is sucking me into it.
honestly speaking...
I thought i was all alone
honestly speaking...
i'm not very good at expressing my feelings
honestly speaking...
it's my own fear that stops me from pushing through
honestly speaking...
i thought i was an example
honestly speaking...
its a love-hate relationship on my take on my lifestyle
honestly speaking...
there is a 80% plus 19.999% chance that i am so not bothered about losing weight
honestly speaking...
it still hurts me, when people talk about my weight
honestly speaking
there are regrets in my life already

2009-09-22T22:02:00.003+08:00

okay, i lead a relatively boring life.

My friends, Rohita & Jyoti are off to Vietnam~ so fast!

I need to exercise. and stop my bottomless pit of a wicked stomach to control my food intake.

twilight

2009-09-21T22:11:00.002+08:00

went over the esther's place for movie.First we watched this jeong ji hyung english vampire movie.. (=_=)
the ending over absolutely not satisfying.

Then we watched Twilight. Which was absolutely interesting to watch Edward Cullen's seductive animalistic eyes lure you in and drown you.

hahahaha.. anyway my bestie got hooked.. but then his hot and our age! HAH~

mr. sagu

2009-09-19T16:41:00.002+08:00

i so want to see that fortune teller again.
this time, to tell me everything indepth!!!

i must must must see him again.

qaaaaaaaaaaaa

2009-09-15T23:00:00.003+08:00

i heard what i wasn't suppose to hear.
yeah.
only then i realise of the non-permanent status of everything
its not really what i wanted to do if its really to be true
in a super dilemma
pissed~

2009-09-12T02:30:00.002+08:00

went out with esther. had awesome dinner and bought the yogurt peel.. hee hee. its so much better than The Face Shop Pomegrante Peel. hohoho.. fantastic buy..
we had a good chat... till quite late.. almost brain freezed inside out.. too tired to think..

so now here i'm back home.. with my silk whitia mask on, the 20mins is seemingly forever.....

palmistry

2009-09-11T02:01:00.005+08:00

i went to see one. and his advice was to avoid boys after I'm 29yo. reason is that boys whom i meet, are from my past life and they, i should meet them,are back to revenge upon me.

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hmmm.. whether or not, i should listen to the "wise man" I have reflected many times, personally alone or with my friends. Time is of the essence. I have no time for a partner, because i have no time for myself. Once I have learnt to be true to myself and learn to make myself happy, then I can consider learning to give love to someone else.

This process is not a easy one. I try to be optimistic. But sometimes, if not action is taken, i end up horribly miserable. what a tough learning journey of life this is. my threshold for pain might have increase. but it doesn't mean i don't feel it.

ps: do expect irregular typo errors aka my jumbled thoughts

art time!!

2009-09-05T13:16:00.002+08:00

its been a while since i last uploaded some randoms photos. I went hunting for photos on flickr.. look what I found! Then I compilted it to this 3x3 format. Hope those who visit my blog.. a visual treat for you! :)

lucky

2009-09-03T00:36:00.002+08:00

I'm a big Oprah Fan
I love her wisdom and her pro-active take on helping women.
Sometimes, her talk show will cover topics which deals with the weight issue, self-confidence, family problems, personal problems. And I'm always thankful that she had that show.

I learnt alot from it. It taught me many things that we can learn and put to use in our personal life. I feel I'm lucky because being in singapore, we lead a shelter life. It's better than in a developing country, in poverty, or like in USA (where I think there is over exposure of the media and information and thoughts of a very unbalance society.)

I'm of the things I'm thankful of is that I don't have to experience the situation to know of the outcome.

Day by day, I struggle by my own terms. Constantly on a reminder: What could I have done to make a positive impact?
And I've come to realise that many times, I suppress these thoughts and procrastinate and fail to act on them. Work hours > Personal Time. Not good. For that being a reason or excuse, a phrase suddenly popped out: God! Please give me more time!

the cove

2009-08-31T01:47:00.002+08:00

i'm really attracted to watch this thriller/documentary.

QUICK - Synopsis

In the 1960’s, Richard O’Barry was the world’s leading authority on dolphin training, working on the set of the popular television program Flipper. Day in and day out, O’Barry kept the dolphins working and television audiences smiling. But one day, that all came to a tragic end. THE COVE, directed by Louie Psihoyos, tells the amazing true story of how Psihoyos, O’Barry and an elite team of activists, filmmakers and freedivers embarked on a covert mission to penetrate a hidden cove in Japan, shining light on a dark and deadly secret. The mysteries they uncovered were only the tip of the iceberg.

terter

2009-08-25T21:27:00.002+08:00

in relation to terter's marriage article..

the story is so sad. A romantic relationship is one thing. Marriage is another.

The big Marriage word is not something that is to be taken lightly. Maybe in the modern times, when there are many factors to take into consideration. Personally I feel that marriage is a vow of responsibility towards each other, to take the first step to be in constant reminder to take a part of your life into your partner's life through good and bad times. I feel that it is a constant test of give and take. And yes, it is a never-ending cycle of learning how to grow old with each other.

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2009-08-22T14:36:00.002+08:00

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I bought this tiny bottle about 1 month ago, when i suddenly noticed fine lines around my eye area. I started to get really distressed about those lines.

when i started using it, because of its creamy texture I only used it at night. so I didn't dare to put any in the morning. But the daily concealer every morning made my eye area dry. so I started to use this "eye doctor" in the morning as well.

I was really surprise that of its light texture despite the creamy appearance. It has kept my skin hydrated. My concealer doesn't cake on it too.

Another plus point is the use of natural ingredients.

I will continue to use it to observe if there's any reduction in the lines!

1 year

2009-08-13T00:58:00.003+08:00

Food for thought:
If you had 1 year to change someone's life, how would you do it?

How will you challenge the obvious, to bring positive change and happiness to one?

shaggy the dog

2009-08-11T22:38:00.002+08:00

i think i totally look like shaggy the dog.
tired and messy hair!

feels like a 12hr working day for the pass weekend, especially today. It felt like weekend never did come at all.

But still, I absolutely need to maintain positiveness! yes yes yes!

grannie.. day 3

2009-08-09T00:53:00.002+08:00

visit my grandma today in the night. SGH is pretty strict on visiting hours on the weekend. managed to spend some quality time with her. made her laugh and talked to her. I'm pretty prepared for the worst. It's just that I'm really attached to her. She was the one who brought me up. Took me to nursery school, kindergarden... but I know she is a strong lady, who raised up 4 kids almost by herself.

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my uncle said that my hainanese has deproved! This is the thing with languages, if I don't use it, I lose it. Worse, dialects are learnt through listening, there isn't a written form for it.

shitty day

2009-08-06T22:44:00.004+08:00

i remember watching one movie. it was about a monk, who was sent to the monastery in nepal at a young age. After 2 years of deep meditation, when done, he had a sudden desire to lead a mortal-commoner's life. He was curious and couldn't help but be attracted to the commoner's life. He was sent to various senior heretics and monks, all whom tried to advise him of the better true path.

But to no avail, the monk's curiosity grew to the better of him. He reasoned, 'how can I seek the path of the enlightened, when I haven't realized what needs to be enlightened'

With this, he left the monastery. He married the village's most beautiful girl and had a family with her. Took over her father's farming business and was a very successful business man.

All was good, when one day a pretty maid caught his eye. This maid lured him and he took the bait. After their one time tryst, he couldn't escape the guilt he had.

The following day, he was guilt-ridden. He couldn't concentrate, that same night he had a dream where his former teacher visited him in the dream. No words said.

The next morning, he received news that his master had passed on.

The following events in the last few days gave him an awakening. He realized the commoner's life was like a never-ending cycle. Of life and death, filled with complications.

With this realization, he packed his bag and left the village quietly. He took with him what he had when he was still a monk. Leaving behind this worldly possessions.

Midway on his journey back to the monastery, he suddenly saw his beautiful wife straight in front of him. Accusing him of being irresponsible - leaving the family and the children without a single word, leaving everything he had.s

This time, he felt pain, heartache and guilt. It was too much to handle, the illusion of his wife disappeared.

For the first time, he understood the pain of CHOICE. He understood why the seniors at the monastery was trying to help him. He understood how much pain Buddha had to go through, knowing it is the right decision to make.
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that's a pretty long story right. it was a movie i watched while i was in spain. I feel this movie makes us think. that while most people wouldn't probably never become a nun or monk. It is important to understand that at any point in time, our life is filled with choices.
-CHOICE of KILLING
-Taking drugs
-Smoking
-drinking
-writing
-watching
-etc etc

What is right is not always the easiest path.

why monday feels like a friday

2009-08-03T21:08:00.002+08:00

today feels like a Friday because of overburn...

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luck's not very good today. Many many hou yi shot down the suns today. either that or I've became more brainfreeze due to lack of sleep.

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and i went shopping.. spent almost a hundred bucks on shoes. i hope this will last me very long. my grey pair of shoes died on me what it rained. And that was the end of the beginning. My mocassins are not bad, some might consider it very auntie. but then I must walk everyday, very tiring leh. I'm not going to kill my legs with my own weight should i wear high heels tipping-toeing on my toes.

really learning how to embrace practicality. :)

tmr's a monday test

2009-08-03T00:05:00.002+08:00

okay. its just 5 mins into the new monday.
and i'm studying for my test.

very important test.

now is breaktime.. so take the chance to blog.. hee hee..

estie just informed me that ION is really cool and has the stuff that I want.

guess what. i just found my Mac Eyeliner in the Kitchen!

super diao-ed.

i still haven't found my dream cleanser yet.

2009-08-01T01:47:00.003+08:00

i can foresee me spending alot on skincare in coming august.
argh.
stress.
must pick and select, even though i think i will end up buying all the products.
stress..
OMG.
its 2am. need to sleep now...

ps: my mommy is on midnight mode.
(=_=)

The Mentalist

2009-07-29T00:37:00.002+08:00

I found out about this show on my starhub cable tv. It was running one of its advertisements. Being a digger for crime solving television series, I was attracted to it. The promotional video of the first episode has an impression that the Lead character(aka Mentalist) Patrick Jane was able to cleverly use situationally diagnosis to analysis how one would be thinking.

Thus, I went to google about the series immediately. I wasn't able to find episode one on Youtube. But managed to watch episode 22 another streaming website.

This series is definitely a MUST-WATCH; especially for CSI lovers. I find Patrick Jane's personality very quirky. One who likes to keep himself slightly entertained, but has an underlying cynical side to him which he rarely reveals.

Read more about the series: The Mentalist

skincare needs

2009-07-28T22:39:00.003+08:00

okay. ever since our raving exchange with my BFF. It has made me go on a skincare hunt!
hahahaha.

i'm super counting down to the finish of my cleanser and moisturizer.
List
1. Cleanser
2. Moisturizer
3. Preferably sleep on night mask or moisturizer

watashiwa BFF

2009-07-27T23:59:00.002+08:00

today was really impromptu.
managed to find some time to catch up with busy BFF.
wahaha. we had a great time over dinner chatting with lots of stuff.

poor her though, she have to go through so much mentally. really very tiring.
but at the same time, I always am amazed by how much she has grew since our school days. There's one thing for sure, I'm proud of her growth.

we also made a really weird discovery.
that is we are both really into this "skincare & make up guru" that both of us found out about separately. sometimes, we are such 2 peas in a pod. our chemistry is good. ahahahhahahahaha..

was really nice to just chat abt girly girly stuff. heehee skincare and makeup.

zac efrrooonn

2009-07-22T21:46:00.004+08:00

i knew that was a reason i didn't want to watch High School Musical.

I knew it. I couldn't have known. I wouldn't want to know. I shouldn't have. BUT I knew it.

The day I watched the movie 17Again. I crashed hard. For stupidity's sake, I have a gigantic crush on Zac Efron.

ah~~~~~ I need to stopppppp................. ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (killing my inner self)

personal update

2009-07-21T23:03:00.002+08:00

i wonder if its the work.

but i think my appetite has greatly increased, especially after work.

i just have this really 'itchy mouth' and i can't seem to stop.

i think i have this Almost bottomless pit. well... i need to stop the food man.

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today is my 2nd day "dieting". - failed.

yesterday barely pass, cuz i ate lots of fruits.

but today though i ate alot of fruits , i also ate like an extra meal for dinner. plus chocolate ice cream too... ... ah!!

how to lose weight like that.

tmr is the third day: GOAL: to stick to my no rice dinner. & eat lots of fruits. to drink water!

salvator Dali

2009-07-20T01:21:00.002+08:00

this is one master when it comes to paintings.
which is which?

painting for thought (",)

2009-07-13T20:56:00.003+08:00

Taxi!!!!!

so cute...

the common thing about taxi which I like is a japanese song title: Taxi.
its a nice ballad. with a very sad melody. Enjoy!

working hard

2009-07-13T20:50:00.003+08:00

i believe it isn't over yet.

probation is still on.

i need to keep working and improving.

mac is where im going to stay at

moi reservations...

2009-07-06T21:21:00.002+08:00

i wonder what lies ahead now.

my dream job. i'm so passionate about is now. . . .. .. .. . . .

this un-easiness just won't ease..

it's like me doing something wrong, making a wrong decision etc

i don't feel right.

i really wonder what lies ahead now.

i only know.. i am saying goodbye to something.. maybe that's why i keep crying

2009-07-03T21:40:00.002+08:00

today i did the most unbelieveable thing
i cried.
during. wo.rk.

haiyo.
i wish i could have better control over my emotions too.
but definitely the revelations was like a tsunami

definitely looking forward to new people.

jiayou!

back./...with pics

2009-07-03T00:54:00.002+08:00

that's what i call PER-SON-ality!!!

super back...

think about it..

same thing... different take..

Feeling out of place?

you alone have the POWER TO CHANGE THINGS..
at least THE WAY YOU THINK

sandra bullock

2009-06-10T22:08:00.002+08:00

well well.. i hope everyone hasn't forgotten about dear sandra. i love the movies that sandra acts in. those romantic comedies are always a pleasure. still remember miss congenieliaty? (psh.. i'm really bad with spelling)

http://www.incinemas.com.sg//blog/blogdetail.aspx?newspostID=385

check out the link to the trailer of her new movie: The Proposal

breathing the London air (in the airport)

2009-05-04T13:31:00.003+08:00

I simple gotta blog about my departure for Las Palmas!

I was really busy packing clothes and food into my 2 luggages.. very happily thinking that I got most of the things done right... and nothing to worry about.. I mean after Barney and I were almost stranded at the airport without VISA to Australia. There seriously couldn't be anything worser than that!

Esther was really nice to come and send me off at the airport.. It was a pity that Joce couldn't make it. And the rest of my yoga friends! It was really nice to see all of them send me off: Radhika, Rohita, Jyoti & Bhaeravii. And Lastly , MY MAMA. Love you all!

okay. so I set off for Terminal 1. Jyoti was really nice to send me off. Radhika, Rohita & Bhaeravii also hopped into the car with me. Initially only Radhika & Rohita hopped off the car with me to go to the departure hall. in an instant, I met my Ma & esther. They're both really early. I reached the airport @ 8.45pm. okay. So i went to check in my luggage as well as obtain my boarding pass.

OMG~~ I got an amazing shock!. First, Jyoti suddenly Appearred beside me! (@.@)
[I thought she & bhaeravii went home)... and then the Custom Officer told me that British Airways only accepts 1 luggage(wth~) .. okie.. i have 2 luggages.. but they're within the weight limit. okay. CRISIS!!!Z!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

first thought to my brain. oh guadz... my FOODDDD!~~~
3options:
1.buy 1 ginomous luggage from NTUC.
2. pay the excess (bloodly 90 pounds!)
3. don't check in one of the luggage..

THANK GOODNESS.. esther offered to lend me her moo-moo luggage. So jyoti drove us off to her place to pick up the luggage. we managed to zoom to and back within 30mins. we did a quick 7mins packing.. and i check in around hmm.. 21:50? i think.

seems like everything i travel... there's sure to be some surprises. like MAJOR surprises. and it keeps getting better~~

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food for thought:
Jyoti NEVER sends anyone off at the airport( I'm the first)
Esther( wants to send me off at the airport, also First Time)

this is really weirdly alot of drama.
God's little Drama? I supposed.

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I'm here.. in london.. 5 degrees right now.. woot~ free aircon.. LOLX..
XOXOXOX..

the day Tampines ONE opened

2009-04-10T23:25:00.002+08:00

the day Tampines ONE opened. it was yesterday. I went there with mom to do some window shopping. it was undeniable PACKED. as if the whole of singapore came to see the NEW shopping mall.

There was alot of hype abt the new jap. casual wear store. the queue was like really long. abit no point to queue lar.

after some very fast brisk walking. we left the mall. it was just too packed!
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ok. so today, good friday. jo,estie and moi went to shan's house for mahjong. poor shan got to rest from her wisdom tooth extraction. had a lot of fun. hahahaha. it was really good to catch up with each other. hahaha. i'm definitely going to keep my eyes on the lookout for the vid that esther look. so utterly embarrassing seeing the crazy us in shan's car.

after that, jo left for the airport. and the 3 of us went off to Tampines ONE. carparking in the mall was NOT possible. only 2 lots available for Tampines ONE! and the queue for those 2 lots was like about 30metres!

good thing we went into the HDB carpack. very lucky to found a lot! yea! free parking for the car!

the hype for the shopping mall is still very strong! wah~~~
the decision is to come back in a late morning weekDAY to shop nicely. hahaha.. just too crowded la.

thoughts about AIG saga.

2009-03-19T23:18:00.003+08:00

honestly speaking.

AIG's management is JUST UN-FREAKING-Believeable!

Perhaps never going through a crisis this big for the upper management makes it okay for themselves(those selfish bast$%^*) to justify the distribution of bonus.

just hoping they would be able to use their senses more often. and not lock it in the common room.

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disclaimer: outroar is purely base on personal feelings of the author. should not be used anywhere else.

sick

2009-02-17T21:56:00.002+08:00

having fever and sore throat. soon its going to develop into the BIG 3!
from sore throat & fever to an additional flu!

argh. not feeling the best right now. think that PMS syndromes comes along with being sick too.

junk/spam mail

2009-02-13T00:30:00.002+08:00

i'm forever amazed by the amount of junk mail i received. the titles are also entertaining as hell!
various from Viagara related pills. friends networking websites, to promotional health pills ( i never trust them) , to Buying Degrees! (OMG! why did i study so hard for!!!) to getting your GReeN A-MER-ICANO card. blah. to getting aussie PR(like real).

manz. the list go on.
i don't dare to open these email( cuz of virus). but the titles make me go OMG forever. ahhahahaha

alittlebitofthat

2009-02-11T17:59:00.003+08:00

little bits and pieces.

of this and that.

@ the end of it all,

it doesn't SUM UP to ALOT

being righteous

and having weaknesses.

@ the end of it all,

i realise i'm not god.

random

2009-02-09T08:53:00.003+08:00

i was watching live perf of Jason Mraz's I'm Yours. Which is so cool. I love his live performances, which have more life and he really connects with the audience.

Being the radio recluse I am, I just only got to find out that he is also the singer of other songs like - Geek in the pink, Nobody like me(you and I both).

So i've embedded the videos for passerbys to enjoy.

spring flower

2009-01-26T03:36:00.001+08:00

EVE of CNY

2009-01-26T03:20:00.002+08:00

okie.

let's start with the eve EVE of cny. it was like superman came to springclean for us. each one of us (family) was busy throwing things away like no tmr. ( note: we already threw like 10kg of stuff on 30th Dec2008) yea.. i was like incharge of cleaning the living room. which is think is the most dirty place ever (besides the kitchen that is. :X )

so armed with my magic clean wiper. I wiped it once. Then I vacummed. Then I mopped the floor Thrice. Then after letting it dry. I use magic cleaned again. By the time I was done, it was like midnight. [=_='''] okay. so i was almost like snail mode after cleaning up the living room.

yea. then i was in-charge of pao-ing the red packet. i packed like really fast in 10-15minutes. then too tired to think and i went to bed.

ok. so i woke up really late on eve of cny at 11am. (note: my reneuion lunch at granny's place is 12noon) still tired. i went back to sleep. but 15mins later, my granny called! hahaha. shit. she was asking come how we're not there yet. I 'searched' the house to find my younger siblings, bro & sis, still in bed. by the time we prepared everything and left the house it was like 12.30pm. we are so LATE. we managed to arrive at granny at 1.15pm. just nice. :) the luncheon started late..~~ hee

fast-forward --> we had reneuion diinner at east coast with our yoga frens. till like 1am. !!!!!!!!!!!!

ok. reaching home, we zoomed into supercleaner mode. throwing more stuff! packing the living room nice nice. and you know what. the living room, i don't know shit-tified HOW got dirty like AGAIN! WTH! we weren't even in most of the time!! shit arse. anyway, i had to magic clean wiped, sweep , and MOP TWICE . then managed to have time to bath. by then it was like 3.30am.

so yea. at 3.40am. here i am. blogging. HAH. my life like nutcase!. *\[@.@]/*

cutest proposal

2009-01-25T01:26:00.000+08:00

2009-01-22T21:58:00.001+08:00

its been some time since i last uploaded pictures..
i had these 2 pics in my lappie.. so thot of sharing it with lucky visitors of thy blog.. hohoho

2009-01-22T21:55:00.002+08:00

shitz man. gain back the 1kg.

actually lost 4kg.

then conclusion is only lost 3kg.

not enough!!!

need to lost more!!

no more chocolates!

2009-01-18T01:23:00.003+08:00

just found out some scary stuff about me-self.

dunno what to think of it at the moment.

feelings are very much mixed up.

it scares me that the old person in me, is actually trying to be 'physically' old as well.

problems and all.

let's see.

*\(=_=)/*

back in singaore

2009-01-15T01:27:00.002+08:00

i'm back in singapore already. its been more than 2 weeks. its great you know, catching up with jc and esther. i still need to catch up with estie MORE!

then its really good that my god-ma is here. so rare. i haven't seen her for the last 3years. feels goood to have her give advice and yea... "kick" my butt for lazying and not taking action for my art. Art is another total different matter, which i have no intention to talk about it at the moment. anyway, my office just shifted to newton. which just means need to spent more on lunch now. cause every now and then will have to take bus to town & makan then take bus back. expensive sia!!

i think if i set up a makan stall below my office confirm make $$. hahahahha. i'm looking forward to spending time with barney. its almost forever since our assie trip together. hahaha. she had a really lucky dream about the 3 of us practically L.O.L our arses off!! i haven't had much of a laugh since the aussie LOL 2week trip.

did you pple know about the O level results released a few days back. That night was the start of COLD WAR. my bro. haiz. just wished that he had buckled up and kept his work tight and neat; so that we won't have to pic up his loose ends.

come to think about it. i think i didn't choose very wisely for my slots for JC/POLY admiissions.. but then again, i did turn out pretty much okay. so i lose some but gain some at the end of the day.

i'm waiting for my canary island trip to be confirm. hope it will turn out good. otherwise i think i will have to slought thru work and make money to first invest , then save save save for my volunter trip.

medan is open, nairobi is open too, so is bali. hmmm.

goldcoast updates~~

2008-12-12T09:06:00.002+08:00

yea!!! i'm really having lotsa fun here with barney and gweek!

almost died at movieworld yesterday! then so sad, the car broke down. but thank god it was fixed on the same day.

did too much shopping!

will update soon

in sg

2008-12-02T12:48:00.002+08:00

arrived back in sg this morning. feeling tired, because I wasn't able to rest well on the 11hour coach ride back to sg. I won't be able to post pictures soon. cuz my sister has the camera, my mom and her are still in msia. so good, they went to auntie bhavanii's house to stay.

My body is still adjusting to Singapore's weather. Feeling hot. In cameron highland was just cool cool cold.. hahaha. Visited many different farms like the strawberry farm, Honey Bee Farm, Rose Valley Farm, BOH Tea Plantation etc.

For the strawberry farm, my friend and I walked there. Though it is just the next adjacent road from our hotel, the farm was located right at the end of the road! Our walk took about 20minutes, up and down the curvy road. We saw many gorgeous flowers as well as weird & cool catcus! The strawberry was less sour than our singapore imported strawberries. But still the Bali Strawberries are the Best!

I didn't shop at all, just bought raw maize from cameron highland. haha... 6corns for 10Rm. Good deal. that's all i shopped.. hahaha..

rockin penang

2008-11-25T12:54:00.002+08:00

now im in penang,msia. to be specific, at a friend's place jelutong..
its like singapore.. geylang/chinatown area.. laidback...
going to stay here for another couple of days, then going to head back to the MU at sungei petani. I've been religiously doing yoga everyday. sometimes even 2 times a day. health's been improving too. digestion system is doing better than back in singapore. I'll be back in singapore witha CHANGE. keke...
hmm.. i'm still thinking whether need to color my hair anot.. its like half price here.. too tempting..keke :)

updates~~

2008-11-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

happy birthday to esthery's BF:don don..

hahaha.. i had a good time @ estie's place... fulfilled my desire of playing mahjong!! keke... basically until my eyes almost wanna pop out..hahahhaa..

then managed to catch up with estie n pat before i leave for msia...

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sat went over to didi's place to confirm some stuff how to get to sungei petani, which is up up up in the north of msia... with my super broken malay, for sure die... then I also managed to catch up with my god-ma!! wah liao.. 3 years never see her already.. seems like she become shorter.. hahaha.. but me leh.. haiz.. fatter.. sianz

then sun got some hoo-haa about the trip to msia.. dunno whether the programme is still on anot.. its less than a week.. and still so uncertain.. kaoz.. at that point in time.. i seriously thought i needed a punching bag!!~~ thank god the problem was solved today.. otherwise i think i going to blackface like for a week.. hahaha

then today my grandma came over to my house to stay~~ woohoo~ tmr might have to bring her to do her Will.. the lawyer doing her Will sounds so nice and young!! hahahhaha.. fantasy for me.. hahahhaha... well. I'll have to see how the lawyer fares la.. if he is good then next time I will recommend him to others..

I can't believe that the year is coming to an end so fast!!!... and I won't be around for most part of it.. at least I'll be back for christmas!! :) julia has promise me a xmas gift! hohoho

thy horoscope

2008-11-05T23:00:00.001+08:00

Pisces Mythology
The sign Pisces is symbolized by the Fish.Your sign's element is Water. Pisces is ruled by the planet Neptune.You are emotional, ultra-sensitive, easy going, self sacrificing, sympathetic, understanding, and sociable. Pisces is an excellent host or hostess. Pisces finds it hard to make decisions because they see all sides to the question. Worry plagues you. You are merciful, obliging, charitable, artistic, with a good sense of color. Pisces will see only the good in others.

Possible negative aspects of the sign Pisces:You can be lazy, self centered, pulled in two directions, a procrastinator, and a day dreamer. Pisces has "weird" experiences, and is often confused.
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damn it.. seems like i'm full of negativity at the moment... =__=

extinctin of t eh salamander

2008-11-03T15:08:00.001+08:00

Just minutes after watching a documentary on Animal Planet about salamanders. I read a news article about its Potential & highly possible extinction...

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20081102/ap_on_re_la_am_ca/lt_mexico_water_monster

the AWESOME meet up

2008-10-24T00:11:00.002+08:00

I should mark down the date today!!
I'm really happy as a organiser today :D
keke, it was one of the rare times when everybody could come together for a catch up.
jc,kel,han,joce,chewy,seb,rui,luv!!
think it was a much needed time to get together, since working life has been taking a toll on most of our social lives..

as usual.. with seb around, the MOST lame person on earth... is punting most of his jokes on me.. =___=... i ain't no alcoholic, i just happen to like to drink martell at movida..

jc looks so girly~ she's in a dress!! sexy ah~~

i look forward to organising the next meet up.. .. gotta see how..

beloved mojito

2008-10-16T02:16:00.002+08:00

HAHA.. well.. for those who guessed why I like mojito...

It's because firstly, you see lotsa green COLOUR. secondly, its sourishly fresh!! so it perks you up. thirdly, its mint-ty too... makes your breath fresh as well.. fourthly, it originated from cuba. yea, the country i really want to visit(aka its my no.1 country^^)... fifthly, to me its almost non-alcholic.. the list goes on......... haha.. i just wanna advertise for mojito hahaha

sleep disorder

2008-10-16T02:04:00.002+08:00

i was watching oprah about a couple of weeks ago. And i remember that there was this episode done to tackle sleeping disorders. If I remember correctly, it's said that 85% of americans suffer from some form of sleep disorder.
So, considering such a statistic.. hmm.. am I suffering from that or not??? (=_=)~

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I'm so slow when it comes to blogging.. but anyways.. the recent sat night was AWESOME~~ I am so in love with movida because of the live band singing my favourite espanol tunes~~ yoo woo~~ gotta really say a BIG thank you to my dearie estie. Of course, not forgetting eve who was such a sweet heart to help me with my make-up. I'm seriously a super novice @ make-up. I didn't even realise that the thing has smudged. Everyone had fun diiirty-dancing.. hehe.. oh yea.. it was my first time drinking martel. strangely a sweet drink.. hahaha.. I wish that the club had Mojito as housepour! hahaha.. I could drink mojita forever~

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changed my blogskin..

2008-10-15T04:15:00.001+08:00

new skin!!

this is one cool picture i found on photobucket.

time for picture frenzy!

sleepless

2008-10-15T03:32:00.001+08:00

yet another sleepless night...
trying to sleep.
having headaache..
taking panadole~~

can't do much but to divert the attention to the com again.

2008-10-09T23:13:00.001+08:00

back into the office.

and i was in there real looonnnnggggggg.

time to oil the rust!

chrome part 2

2008-09-29T23:20:00.003+08:00

aftermath of using chrome for a number of weeks...

there are still some sites I face some difficulty accessing.

but the glitch that i first encountered whereby it was really slow to access my email etc has had been fixed!!! so yea~

what i like about chrome is that when one of my browsers hang on me.. i can easily drag out the tab and close it, without affecting the performance of other tabs on the chrome browser.

peace

2008-09-25T16:14:00.003+08:00

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recently watched micheal jackson's MV , Black or White. The MV is so cool.

Micheal is so cool too.

review on google's babe CHROME

2008-09-06T19:47:00.002+08:00

ok.
i've downloaded and have been using chrome for the past couple of days.
just for information, I use the the windows IE, morizzla FireFOx as well as the new google's CHROME.

What i like about Chrome is the fast start up as reported in the newspaper. In this aspect, it has beaten IE as well as FireFox. The simple features make it almost idiot-proof to use. But I guess, that where the advantages end.

One MAJOR dislike about Chrome is that even without clearing previous data, on the CHROME is like a rabbit out of breath after the initial sprint. For websites that I frequent like anyother youth users would definitely include Facebook , yahoo and hotmail. The mentioned website takes a long time to load. Even for its "mother" the Google search website (which is almost bare with no advertisements) takes a long while as compared to google on IE and FireFox.

The second thing which i dislike was the backward key does not have a drop down like it has in IE. This IE feature is of great help to me. I do hope it will be inputed into a better version of CHROME in the future.

I do expect alot more adjustments to the baby CHROME.

With that, I take back my Love towards CHROME. I shall revert back to IE and firefox.

Chrome!!!!

2008-09-04T20:40:00.001+08:00

OMG!

CHROME ROCKS!

this is a google lovely sexy and best by far RIVAL to window's internet explorer.

its so fast on VISTA that its unbelievable.

for those morillaza foxes... u lose too! hahaha

check out the link to download google CHROME

2008-08-19T16:11:00.000+08:00

i lost everybody's blog addy!~~~
=___=
sobs.

2008-08-16T14:17:00.002+08:00

don't i love thee enough
is it overflowing?

2008-08-14T22:33:00.002+08:00

think i'm suffering from migraine.
been no good this past few days.
its a on/off syndrome.
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been thinking recently about my life.
i wonder if there's any out there like me, who has made a break through.
yupps.
a breakthrough is what i'm looking for.

i always wanted to be out there in life. living it to the fullest.
i'm living it to tht fullest. definitely. but not as a position of a youth.
more like a surrogate mum.
worst. it doesn't bring positive energy to me.
more like the opposite.

life to myself.
im still trying to find that balance.

pea~

2008-08-12T22:29:00.003+08:00

Its always nice to know and rem that goods friends are there for you.

will always love and cherish them in my heart.

yb

2008-08-11T22:00:00.000+08:00

pissed.

youtube suspended my account.

sianz.

inspire!

2008-08-05T21:19:00.002+08:00

Don't follow your dreams; chase them
- Richard Dumb

2008-07-22T18:05:00.002+08:00

going to be a crazy year.
though i saw the end of exans preparation!!
oh no. that's such a big lie.

gotta help prepare for another.
my sister's PSLE.
very stress la!
like mini teacher.
gotta finish syllabus.

ah~
stress makes me fat.
im so craving for macdonald's frenchie fries now.
aw~

seems like my blog's picture is not working liao.
sobs.
well.. just need to go hunt for another.

pictures of a thousand words

2008-07-22T00:31:00.002+08:00

pictures time!

2008-07-18T12:05:00.000+08:00

EVERYTIME I CLOSE MY EYES...

THE BEAUTY NEVER FAILS TO AMAZE ME

2008-07-16T14:01:00.001+08:00

POSITIVE
GO GO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

D for all things dab/bad

2008-07-14T12:53:00.003+08:00

negativity is so easy to fall prey to.
being lonely is really one of the easiest things to do.
put the 2 of them together and we're going to head for the black hole in space.
sucking the life out of us.
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there's so much to do.
yet i can't seem to get it done.
chances to really smile and laugh from the bottom of the heart seems so rare.
thoughts of such things seems so near yet far away.
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the thin line that separates one from falling is so translucent.
life without vitality is rocking back & forth; balancing on this very line.
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when will one fall?
truth is.... have i already fallen?

raffles marina pics

2008-07-12T01:37:00.001+08:00

ache ache ache

2008-07-12T01:23:00.002+08:00

yesterday had a really fun day!!
was DCO P&G day.
driving & running around singapore was sure tiring.
the pulua ubin tied-leg walk was really pain BUT worth it.
only wished that we could have walked faster.
I didn't know that besides 24hrs 7/11 & Kopitiam,
the bak kut teh : SIN HENG bak kut teh @ joo chiat
was also 24HRS!!
the other Highlight of the day was : FISH SPA
it was so funny!
my leg felt so clean afterwards. I went for the Big fishes. it was scary looking at those fishes opening & closing their mouths. but it was so tiklish! i just couldn't stop myself from laughing in the first 5mins.
dinner was great at Siloso beach, Cafe Delmoan~
super super tired afterwards. practically slept on my studying table when i reached home.

Friday::
someone fly me an aeroplane.
sianz.
my leg was aching alot. haha.. somemore i walk & walk & walk then reach only to have been flown kite. (=_=) just need to treat it like its normal lor.
Tonight's BBQ was nice!! OMG the place is unbelieveable. Raffles Marina, any idea?
its in TUAS!!
and can see the tuas-m'sia flyover!!
it was on one of our collegues yacht.
and you get to see many other yachts, which are BIGGER!
omg! i just wonder where pple find the $$$$.
the game that junkai organised was really fun!
but my chinese was quite bad when they up to level2 for the game. had all most stickers on my face as punishment!! hahahaha
but the place is really isolated.. driving took us at least 40mins to reach home!
had a fun day!

millionaires not bornt with a silver spoon

2008-07-04T23:42:00.002+08:00

self made millionaires are such a wonder to the common people, when they are in fact Common people. Having hear them talk is such an inspiration! they are the people who succeed in their dreams. I find that dreaming to be one of them is simply not enough. Its the constant fight against oneself and being able to emerge the winner through many trials and failures, that make pple shine like a star.

I would then recall my sec school days where I was in the netball team. Training every morning from 0645-0715. and 3 times a week after school from 1430-1900. Training was tough, the team motivation was great, but the desire to be compete and be selected for the school team drove us to never give up. Stretching and attainingresults over the limits. Training was a MUST. Running Fast was a MUST. Giving up was always on our minds, but I had to keep telling myself : Till is 1900 it'll all be over.

i miss those days, where bonding was great. the mental strength was strong. that fact that we just never gave up and kept trying and trying. i wanna re-live it.

2008-06-29T23:35:00.003+08:00

crucio!! the death spell in harry potter.

it's not a crucio moment for me la.
more like CRUCIAL moment for me.

hmm.
i don't know where to begin.
i'm really bad with narration.

my life has become more family-like.
alot of time i spent with my sis is very impt.
i feel like a 2nd mom to her.
and i'm really worried abt the teenage years.
sometimes it drives me to be a super worry tart.

the experiences i'm having with work is normal.
emotionally and mentally, i have to start building up power!
toughen up!!

i think to a large extent i avoid having bgf relationships.
i really don't have time for myself, so i definitely won't have time for the ONE.
i don't believe that the boy can make me happy eternally.
what happens should he leave?
i might break into pieces.

i rather learn more about myself first.
be the person i want to come to love , respect and cherish.
maybe a long time later, a certain someone out there will see me.

dots. situation.

2008-06-28T23:46:00.005+08:00

EDIT::
dear bestie, i was never angry with you. no worries.
analysis of aftermath:
i still think the girl with the same nick as me,
is very drama.
i do think she is rather too much in love with herself.
too much of anything is no gd la.
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i must become stronger and better street-smart.
i love my bestie even more after everything.

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2008-06-07T01:47:00.000+08:00

we got married.

2008-06-05T15:31:00.003+08:00

hahaha.. so missy Ain complain i never properly write my blog.. hahaha
i'll try to type it properly la..

anyway.. these days.. in my free time( i don't have alot) i really like to watch my korean variety show such as "we got married". I've found this show very interesting.

In this show, the producers have paired up 4couples, all of which are celebrities in their own way either singers/actors/actress etc. the "husband" and "wife" must then "act out" the married life. The couples are not real life couples. BUT as they spent more time as a Make-believed couple, OF COURSE, they will developed feelings for each other right?

that's the fun part!! hehehehe.. its especially fun to see how korean man can be really accomodating to the "wife" who sometimes make them to cute cute stuff.---

check out my facebook for photos ;)

2008-06-05T15:24:00.001+08:00

comics!~~ HoHoHo

2008-05-29T15:07:00.001+08:00

THINK POSITIVE!!
POSITIVE THINKING IS THE WAY TO GO!!

strange

2008-05-23T22:26:00.002+08:00

strange as it seems..
i kinda like my job.. kekeke...
hee :)

the path of the beginning

2008-05-23T01:13:00.000+08:00

the path of the beginning
is never easy
like everything
it starts out small
on a rough journey
it grows more and more
absorbing the good and bad
to progress more towards the bloom

the travel tales of the lotus
begins here~

fated to love you

2008-05-13T01:28:00.002+08:00

i'm really glad that i've been spending some time with my friends...
being in the twenties... its been different yet the same...
i get to hear and understand more about relationships....

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anyway, i'm really want to introduce this SHOW: FATED TO LOVE YOU
its a concurrent taiwanese drama serial. I'm not a huge fan of taiwanese series, but this is seriously FANTASTIC!!!

my head bursting

2008-05-11T01:25:00.001+08:00

heart is burden after the exams.
so freaking paradoxical.